Lonely

It is amazing how one can be in a house with 4 other people and feel so lonely.

I talk to my husband but he is not listening. I want to paint the kitchen cabinets and add some more cabinets to the kitchen but he just says ok and doesn't even look at me and I am wondering what the heck am I doing? this marriage is still not on solid ground. Do I really want to invest in a home that I will be leaving, then again I can take the new cabinets with me.

I think of ways to tell him about school but I know he won't say anything and later he will give me a scolding for taking loans to pay for school.

I am looking forward to my appointment tomorrow with the psychotherapist. I have so much I want to get off my chest, so much in fact that may be my DDs will go down to a C (LOL)

Later my lovelies